i know the last thing that i should be doing now is this (and of course, facebook). but since the workload is endless and piling viciously, i guess i should just cut myself some slack here and there. though weekends now mean schoolwork time, im kinda looking forward to the long weekends.

week 4/6 into the semester and im still feeling negative. modules are mostly boring or too tedious, projects are crazy and i havent even got to the written tests. ive been ranting to anyone who bothers to listen and even im getting sick of getting sick of school, if you know what i mean.

on a side note, totally love the weathers these days. okay, i dont know what else to say. and i have this love hate relationship with days when my head goes overtime with thoughts. it sucks to know that what im doing now is not making me happy and yet i cant do anything about it but to press on and just go. thank god that this is the last semester and i want to get it over with by doing the best that i could. call me overambitious but if i want it enough, i will get it.

meanwhile, i just need some faith and strength to press on for another 2.5months or so then it'd all be over. yeah, whats 2.5months to me? so, im gonna try to get these negative thoughts out of my head and just get on with whatever.

as mentioned, i think i know what will make me happy - travelling. but i cant even do that now. money and time constraint. i hate it when almost everything has to be measured in monetary terms. it's just not fair. i dont know why we all like to pretend that money is secondary because, it so isnt. how many pple actually gave up on studying not because they cant but because they dont have the money? and dont even get me started on how many pple gave up on seeking treatments and had to be left to die because they cant afford it?

i know, im not exactly poor but urgh, i dont know. i dont know what im trying to derive or prove but i guess we're all very fortunate already. cos at least, we dont have to go hungry.

p.s this post prolly doesnt make any sense but it did make me feel a wee bit better.

p.p.s maybe i should seriously consider travelling alone.

p.p.p.s whoever who's reading this, im sorry if ive dampened your mood or whatever. i know how that sucks.