nownow, it's been a long time. anyone missed me?

i have a lot to say, as usual. BUT i dont know how to phrase some of them into proper sentences so that they make sense and some are (too) personal thoughts.

anyhow, these few months have been one hell of a roller coaster ride and i allowed myself to commit a grave grave mistake, not to mention an extremely stupid one. ive always liked to be as honest to everyone as possible, including to myself so yeah, it's gonna take some time for me to so called 'forgive' myself and put this behind.

a vacation would really help. im dying to get away from here. oh and in case anyone thinks im emo and/or suicidal, i aint. i.just.need.a.break

p.s once again, im thankful for the couple of friends who've been there. you know who you are, xoxo.

p.p.s oh and i guess i'll stop posting photos up here cos they are all over at facebook.

p.p.p.s 5 more weeks to go.