random fact one: im actually quite terrified of crows and pigeons, on top of insects (of any kind). how stupid is that? whenever i see beetles lurking arnd the house (note: the platter/pitter sound they make when they hit against the light always make me cringe and cover my ears) i'll scream for my dad but he'll almost always say 'fancy being terrified of smth that small as compared to you'. size wise, of course. tsktsk.

random fact two: i dislike exams related dreams nightmares. just last night/this morning, i dreamt that i was sitting for this chemistry paper and i was stuck at the first section of 4 MCQs for 45mins or so. imagine the helplessness cum frustration. hah. oh and of course, the teacher featured in the nightmare was mr ng.

being stuck (mentally) during exams is inevitable but in the nightmare, the case study to the 4 MCQs were like 3 or 4 pages long and were partly in french or smth. i have no idea why. i faintly remembered asking mr ng (in the nightmare) what the heck were those.

this is what i got from a website: ' To dream of failure, signifies fears of inadequacy and low self-esteem. You are not applying yourself to the fullest potential. Or you are overwhelmed with anxiety and the pressure to excel. ' okay. very true to a certain extent.

random fact 3: im not happy now and im afraid there's nothing much i can do about it.

okay, i think this is the weirdest post ever. anyhow, im actually happy for those perfect pple (i.e. you, You and YOU) out there leading their perfect lives. yeah, happy. like, not even envious or jealous or anything. why be (envious or jealous) when you're forever the ugly duckling? even 'ugly duckling' sounds too cute.