i dont know why but i havent been feeling good these days. ive been trying very hard to find the right word to match my feeling(s) but couldnt. it's like smth's changing within me and erm, i dont know. there's this wave of emotions running through all at once and i couldnt quite handle them. (note: please dont come telling me 'oh you're too stressed' 'too many projects izzit' LOL-ing at me and all that shit.)

on the other hand, i kinda cant wait for 2009. new year, fresh start! ive got a couple of resolutions that i diedie have to abide by. the top of my list would be BE LESS BITTER about things, haha. second would be to be NICER as a whole (i.e. think before action, talk less listen more). oh and the third one would be to be more tactful. im becoming more and more direct and it's got to a point where i myself am actually pissed about it.

i dont know if anyone has ever taken me seriously but yeah, im learning to be more open with my feelings. evidence? refer to first paragraph. (: surprisingly, it feels okay-ish to do so. wait, do i actually look like im always 'happy' all the time (i mean other than those times when im pissed)? cos i think these are the only emotions im capable of expressing openly. hah.

2009's NY Resolutions (for now)

1) to less bitter
2) be nicer as a whole
3) be more tactful with my words

p.s actually, im already putting those resolutions into practice. ^.^v (okay, this emoticon is kinda a spontaneous thing)