i feel more at peace/relaxed now. was feeling so pissed (mainly) and stressed with the stupid ERS which seems endless, seriously. it seems like ive done like 'damn a lot' but there's always smth left undone or unedited. so towards the end, when i was about to snap, i gave up. haha

so i guess it's true that pple are happier when they 'dont care' too much, ie easy going. and i agree to a great extent. but i cant help it if it's in the blood/genes, can i? anyhow, ever since entering poly, ive noticed how im very err. direct. cos my emotions and feelings are goddamn obvious. i guess it's kinda good in a way cos once im done PMS-ing. thats the end of it. hahaha

i know my posts are getting boring, with it revolving arnd school, projects, rants. just a little smth to share,

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

OCD is a type of mental illness that causes repeated unwanted thoughts. To get rid of the thoughts, a person does the same tasks over and over.

Symptoms of the disorder include:

• Obsessions. These are unwanted thoughts, ideas, and impulses that you have again and again. They won't go away. They get in the way of your normal thoughts and cause anxiety or fear. The thoughts may be sexual or violent, or they may make you worry about illness or infection. Examples include:

1. A fear of harm to yourself or a loved one.
2. A driving need to do things perfectly or correctly.
3. A fear of getting dirty or infected.

• Compulsions. These are behaviors that you repeat to try to control the obsessions. Some people have behaviors that are rigid and structured, while others have very complex behaviors that change. Examples include:

1. Washing or checking that something has been done.
2. Counting, often while doing another compulsive action, such as hand-washing.
3. Repeating things or always moving items to keep them in perfect order.
4. Hoarding.
5. Praying.

so how did you rate? hahaha. and i'll get rachel to read this post so she wont think that it's OCB.hahaha