is it just me or?

in my opinion, as one grows older, one has lesser and lesser things to look forward to or be happy about. everything more or less falls into a routine and becomes a habit, you find yourself just doing it out of motion, not because you want to. and you remember less and less of whats happened cos they all seem the same, or that they're trivial things not worth mentioning.

i dont know about you but sometimes i feel that way and it's pretty depressing. and at times like this, i wish i can do smth completely different for a change, like tour europe alone?! yes, you heard seen it right. alone. thats not pathetic, thats independence. i know i wouldnt be able to survive for long but i want to learn how to. like step out of the whole comfort zone thing and do smth different for a change. (:

enough of that. my sister scared the shit out of me by hitting herself against the window and falling flat on the floor, hitting her head. i thought she was pretending, for gods sake. but when she lay there and didnt move, i went and shook her, calling her name and all then she regained her conciousness and said she had no idea she fainted. !!! okay, i think she's fine now, just that there's this bump on her head.